You and I, 224.

Without a goal, there is no journey. - Win Phan.

i know you had a rough night and i wish your dad was more understanding and patient but just forget about it and just ignore the horrible words that came out of his mouth.. i love you and ill always be there for you. I CANT WAIT TO SEE YOU TOMORROW.. Y0 AZZ ALL PR377Y 4ND 5hizz… hehe.  

anyways..

so i wrote this on my laptop with sticky notes… LOL.. i hope everything flowed and the hard part was putting all my thoughts together so it doesnt look like a messy piece of shit. i put a lot of thought into it though but i didnt do much erasing and correcting and rereading.. so i hope you like it. i love you. (:

Aina Yao,

Finally.. Graduation.

say goodbye to all the frustration

it’s time for you to be free

live life the way you want it to be..

 college is so damn near

trying not to break down, keeping myself in gear

i will try to see you every 2 weeks!

just to give you a kiss on your cheek.

the most important year of high school… and we chose to be together,

loving through it and it’s horrible weather.

and i mean the horrible times when we’d fight

for no reason, just to see who’s right.

it was love that held us close,

saying no to all them hoes

gosh, let’s forget about the past,

and move on cause you know we’ll last..

As we go on, we remember

All the times we had together

And as our lives change, from whatever

We will still be, together forever

so once again congratulations,

one day, you and i will rule the nation.

im sorry i always put my thoughts into rhymes,

i just think it’s a lot easier to express myself sometimes.

you know im always thinking of you,

our love is so strong, its unbreakable like bamboo.

your man,

Win Phan.

p.s. i know the last line was kinda out of no where.. but i like it and i didnt know where to put it. :P

So i finally finished this poem for you.. It took me a couple of days and i hope you like it.. i would have finished it earlier but ive been caught up with so much.. i wrote everything on tumblr at first but thank god i pasted it on words cause damn… tumblr doesn’t change your “i” to “I”.. It feels so weird now trying to write normally, cause now im constantly thinking of rhymes LOLOL.. so yeah. love you. (:

I attempt this a lot, but I’ll never get it done,

But tonight’s going to be different, this one is for you hun.

You’ve changed my life and nothing’s going to be the same,

I wanted to join the army, thought everything was a game.

Came to you thinking that we’d just have fun,

now I’m hooked girl, it feels like I gotta home run.

I thought I’d go to college and get with every girl,

and then I met you, my life began to swirl.

Going to the beach and not knowing what to eat,

walking around the city, never felt so complete.

Laying at home, just cuddling, under the same sheet,

in the silence just hearing our heart beat.

And then everything became to get out of place,

had to sit down, relax and needed some space.

We argued so much, it became so frustrating,

but after we talked it out, everything felt so amazing.

I was so stubborn and I almost walked away,

you held me back, I’ll never forget that day.

Now we’re sure that everything’s going to be alright,

But it sucks that I can’t promise; there will be no more fights.

I’m happy I’m finally coming to a conclusion,

I want to look back and know that this wasn’t all an illusion.

I’m sorry; I know all my lines are kinda lame,

but you have to know I’m not doing this cause of the fame.

I’m doing this for you and I want you to know,

That no matter what goes on, I won’t ever letgo.               

Wow, now it’s been over a year,

time past so fast and everything seems so clear.

Everything I’m writing here is from the heart,

all my feelings are so mixed up, I really didn’t know where to start.

You love me and I know you do,

and I’ll keep this short, I love you too boo.

I’ll always be with you and no one else because i know in the end… that it’ll all be worth it. I would risk it all for you and even if the surprise is ruined.. just tell me you’re happy and you like it once more and i’ll be happy too. i love you.

i know you tell me i make you happy all the time but..

i always feel like no matter how hard i try to make you happy, i dont think i can ever make you really happy.. you always get the nicest things and what you want.. “Money can’t buy happiness” this is the most retarded quote i’ve ever read in my whole entire life.. If i had money and i bought you everything.. im pretty sure you’d be very happy..

On my private tumblr.. i found this..

“Im going to get you your favorite perfume! im so happy and excited! i want to get it and give it to you so badly.. but im going to be patient and wait till Christmas! i want to tell you too! but i dont want to ruin the surprise.. i want you to open it and i want to see you smile… (: ah.. only if i could tell you!!”

a few weeks later..

“i think the perfume is eh cause my dad doesnt like it..” “i don’t really like it now.” “my dad thinks it smells weird.”

after i told you i got it for you..

we argue because you told me how your dad doesn’t like it so.. since he doesn’t like it, you don’t like it anymore.. does that even make any sense? so i was very disappointed.. damn.. I spent so much time thinking about what to get you when i knew all along.. you kept telling me you really liked it, it smells so good, and on your tumblr you would write about it too.. i got so happy! but now.. everything is ruined -_- and you tell me..

“my dad thinks everything smells bad! i like it, i do!” “i really like it” “i only did not like it for a few minutes” etc etc etc.. all bullshit..

why do i even bother? this annoys me and has been bothering me the whole freakin day.. i hate this. :T

i want to delete this so badly.. but where else can i put my private journal stuff. dont know what to do! :T

I’m so excited to go to New Paltz Open house with you!!! I don’t really care about the open house or whatever, I just want to spend more time with you. Hopefully we can book a night at the motel and I hope my parents would be cool with it. :O If anything, we’ll go in the morning and stay there over night and head home on Sunday evening! I want to wake up seeing your beautiful face! <3

Had a long boring day until I saw you! thanks for getting me that chicken roll and grape soda! And thank you for always being there and waiting outside of school everyday to see my ass.. You’re the best girlfriend ever! Now I’m waiting for you to finish doing your homework so you can call me! (: I love you! <3

I had a great day today baby. I can’t promise you that everyday will be like today, but I can promise you that I will try to make it all work. No more arguing, no more crying, and no more :(. I love you.